Author: stevehaarman

When you are asleep you

Have no control over your

Dreams or the results of them

They may drift from your

Awareness and then return

In a similar form. Nailing your

Eve’s trough back in place after

A tough winter, you see three

Or four yellowjackets coming

Out of their hibernation or quiet

Time. The tendency is to squash

Them before they sting you. In the

meantime, they begin copulating,

going at it for survival. It is a normal

spring activity and you cannot slow down

their activity and you keep dreaming

that they keep coming at you, while you

Call for the spray, which seems to work

The more you kill, the more that

Show up. This is to the point where

You need to call for help. On

Adjacent eves there are more than

You can handle so you decide to

Take down the trough and all the

Troughs around the house. You need

Netting and are receiving apologies from the

The men who were going to store the

Troughs over the winter. One was

Carrying a large jar of canned plums

Which we were going to buy since we

We’re now in a grocery store. He suggested

That we put it in the close-out bin to get a

Reduced price. I suggested we put their work

In the bin as it deserved close-out pricing. Next

I found myself in Fairbanks, Alaska, trying to

Get advice on how to solve my problem. A

Man named Dan asked if I had seen the paper

Which had the retirement notice of my sister

Who had worked in the hospital as a nurse for

58 years. I thought my sister had died, but Dan

Told me to tell my sister to call the number of

A man who had an interest in her. He fixed me up

With a special noise machine that would drive the

Yellow jackets away. I returned home and gave

My sister the paper and plugged in the machine.

The insects left, and we began the repairs. I woke

Up tired. 

Stanski

May 3, 2023, ^

I was flying into space

Just outdistanced the

Wet claws of an eagle

Flying out to far. I

Could not be slowed

Down as I had too much

Of the galaxy to see this

Day. My purpose is to

Find life as I know it on

Any of the planetary

Bodies of which there are

Millions. I soared and viewed

And my purpose was coming

Up empty. The God of us all

Had so far restricted any

Discovery. He knew what I was

Up to. I wanted to discover if

There was life anywhere, where

Peace and prosperity prevailed

Hope upon hope was getting me

Nowhere and I decided to go

Back for now and return later,

Understanding that our earth was

As good as it was going to get.

This of course made me very sad

We had everything we needed and

Still could not find peace or

Reconciliation amongst ourselves

There was always something out

Of kilter with no proper order.

Someone always had to set out to

To prove some impossible thing,

To no avail I might add. Misery was

The best word to describe the

Overall conditions. We had many

Lessons but had failed to learn from

Any. Maybe this is the best we have

To look forward to. We will find out

As I continue my search at a later date.

Stanski

May 2, 2023, ^

The builders rejected it and

I know the feeling. I reach with

Hope to know they would be

Happy with me, but stay rejected

I meditate over this for a while

And then resolve that not selected

As a regular stone of which, there

Are many or a rejected stone of which

There are just a few. I will live my life

Quietly and accept everything that

Comes my way. The cornerstone is

Lovely to look at, and it is sentimental

Sometimes giving you the shivers as

You reflect on it and all that has passed

Since it was selected and locked into

Place. I want people to see me in that

Light. Nothing outstanding but there

Dependable, unshakeable, and worthy

Of remembrance. My music will be

Dark and jazzy, and people will listen to me

As I anchor the building with stability and

A tone that keeps people attached to their

Roots. No one will be tossed by imitating me

But rather praised for being so useful

I will reach into the cosmos and grab

A handful of stardust and sprinkle it

Wherever I go and goodness will come

From it. When this happens, I know that

My double rejection had a valuable outcome.

Stanski

May 1, 2023, ^

I reach across my pillow and

Come up with air I inhale it

And there is still the fragrance

Of you, but you have been gone

For longer than I wish to remember

A simple conversation broke us in

Two and I wonder how it happened.

You wanted to converse and even

Said or asked why we couldn’t do

This more often. I cannot sit down

At an appointed time and begin a

Communication about something or

Anything. With me it is spontaneous,

Either there or not and I am not going

To fake it, just like I wouldn’t lift my

Cane to stop traffic a half block away

When I only had a few more steps to

Take. Life is too full of phony baloney

And when faced with it I would rather

Be in another stratosphere where

Perversion does not exist. Why, I wonder,

Is retaliation so important to you. Can’t

You practice quietness for just a little while

As the world continues to rotate and many

Things will happen that you have no control

Over. You pretend too much, and when I

Grabbed a handful of air it was hot, and in

Actuallity the essence of you, I am sorry to

Say. You need to control and to be one up

On your adversaries. Your ideas come from

Perverts who tell you what they are going to

Get on their twentieth anniversary. Only her

Flippant remark came to nothing as the

Marriage came to an end, and so did her money

As he picked her clean before dropping her like

You would a cheap suit at Goodwill. That’s it.

If you want to talk, drop me a line. If not

I still can reach out for your air which you

Think comes from verdant pastures and

Sweet streams of water.

Stanski

April 30, 2023, ^                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                        

I may have been sleeping

And had a deep seeded dream

What is so bad about reaching

Into the universe for answers?

I reached through a hole and

Grabbed a handful of stardust

It sounds romantic until I

Laid it out on a table and

Arranged it into geometric

Equations which I had to solve

This was no small task bit I

Set about my work and came

Up with the conclusions

There were many and to

Line them up to make sense

Of it all was a great task

You are sleeping and dreaming

But that is okay. Start smiling and

Keep smiling until everyone around

You is also smiling. The seriousness of

Everything around you is diminished

It still exists, but has ben for longer

Than we can count, but still your

World goes on and you have gone

Through several phases, from well off

To extremely poor. You have survived

Because it is of your nature to. Friends

And relatives have died in wars. These

Were essential and brought much anguish

To many around the world. You as a people

Could not learn. The seed of control had

Been planted and there will be no

Let up until the Man from Galilee returns

With his staff and his angels. As a human

Angel I will give my reports on what I

Have observed and recorded. Suddenly

I will be overwhelmed with “friends”

Hoping for good reports. I talked to them

To the extent that my throat was parched

I reached for my water and cleared my head

Was this a dream or not?

Stanski

April 29, 2023, ^

Planning for the day is easy

When you are lying in bed

You visualize all the chores

Being done in an orderly way

And somehow get excited

You can see in your mind’s eye

How everything will look

This is a thrilling experience

You cannot wait for the day

To begin. It does, though and

So does the rain. The plants

Are given a good soaking and

You start talking to yourself

Tomorrow is another day

Today I can refine my plans

I will get my tools ready

The wheelbarrow is essential

As are the rakes, edgers, and

The shovels. It will be good to

Get out there and breathe in

The fresh air as the work begins

You know where to start as

Your plans show you. You are

Full of energy as you begin

The work is really pleasurable

And before long, you hear the

Church bells ringing out the

Angelus. I stop to pray along

And am reminded that this

Work I am doing is to glorify

Him and not to seek out

Laudations for how nice it looks.

I get back to work. The edging

And throwing the sod into the

Wheelbarrow is not too exciting

But I know I am getting near the

End and all the new plants look

Lovely. I am happy and thankful.

I look around for my next project

It begins to rain, and I go in

It has been a good morning

Stanski

April 27, 2023, ^

Blackbirds flying about

In and out of the shadows

Provided by the sparse

Sunshine. The gray lake

Looks cold and little wind

Is blowing. Except for

Patches here and there

The snow is all gone

We are near the beginning

Of May and some steady

Change to the warmer

Should be taking place

We are looking for the

Showers that will bring

Us the flowers that bloom

In May. We will keep

Watching for the robins

And bluebirds and chickadees

They will make us happy

And worth the wait

Gardens will grow and

The flowers glow as the

Birds play hide and seek

Stanski

April 26, 2023, ^

It is hard to believe

That so many days

Are without sunshine

And leave us in a daze

We wait patiently

For things to change

To do it ourselves

Is out of our range

We look at the sky

White with some blue

The water is calm

Waves are held with glue

The end of April

Is almost here and

The flowers will come

There is no need to fear

To the resurrected Son

All glory has been given

Now we are locked in gray

As though it were a prison

I know that we lament

And waste time waiting

It is kind of foolish

We should be out parading

When we see darker clouds

Upon the greening hill

We know that we will

Soon see the daffodils

Our spirits will be risen

All glory to the One

Now we can enjoy

Our days in the sun

Now things seem normal

Gone are the days of wishing

Our yard tools are waiting

And we know our mission

Stanski

April 24, 2023, ^

The cross was heavy and

His body beat from the

Scourging, but he didn’t

Quit. Simon of Serene

helped carry it to Calvary

where Jesus was crucified

and hailed as the King of

the Jews. We all feel bad

about the suffering, but

he did it to make our

salvation possible. It would

be fitting for us, in an effort

to help carry the cross, to

help those in need that

enter into our lives. He told

us that himself and said that

the Holy Spirit would be with

us to support us and give us

courage. So many times we

neglect our opportunity to

serve in this way and still go

to him for his help in meeting

our needs. This is so one-sided

we should hang our heads in

shame for neglecting an inherent

responsibility. By doing the right thing

we would find joy and have

abundant self worth. Now is the time

I came to a divide in a golden wood

And chose the path less traveled and

This has made all the difference.

So it shall be.

Stanski

April 22, 2023, ^

Today is like yesterday

Bright and gray

An early start to the

Hospital to hang art

New methods are being

Employed. The walls are

Not flooded with beautiful

Art but the works are spaced

Out so as to not smother

The onlookers. For the most

Part everything is in balance

And the filling in is going

According to script. Much

Was accomplished but more

Is to be done. With fifteen

People on the committee

It is difficult to come to

Complete agreement on

Everything. So a compromise

Is in order. It is said that you

Wind up with a camel when

You wanted a palomino. It is

Not that bad here and a little

Give and take are necessary.

So far the people like the way

Things are coming together

Many hands make light the

Work and a lot of the stuff

Purchased from the “art.com”

Group has been set aside. It

May be auctioned off later at

A fund raising event. More work

Will be finished later.

Stanski

April 21, 2023, ^