THINKING MY SONG AS I PLAY

Christmas, 2020

My friends, I kneel here with one knee on

the ground trying to disavow myself

from all that has gone wrong.

I am not a noble man but advocate no misery. 

Listen closely to the music;

a language we all understand. 

Did Bob Marley have it right or

were his murmurings all wrong? 

Listen carefully to his words;

his soul speaks loudly in his songs: 

Listen to his dog bark out the word “Courage”.

Do you have any?  Let’s see. 

Where are we going to from here, now? 

Not to pasture, friends, like an over-milked cow. 

I’m scrambling now, mister. 

Let’s slow the music down a little. 

Have to give ease to my ticker. 

We must never feel we are at a loss. 

Look at the Man-Child; we could call Him boss. 

Let’s help Him carry that heavy cross. 

We are foolish people, friends. 

I hate to say that loud. 

Our methods defy all logic. 

Don’t we hate to be wrong? 

There are secret paths to glory.

You must commit to sacrifice. 

No one ever wins it all by a lucky roll of the dice. 

Everyone doesn’t gamble, friends.

There is no easy way and even

when you play the proper chord,

people may listen and are often floored,

but if they are clandestine and easily bored,

you’re not making much of a headway.

My friends, I look up at you. 

I’ll play my music and sing, giving instruction

through the use of heavenly notes. 

Tell me, what does it really mean? 

We take from those defenseless.

Conquer the weak and deprived.

Pay attention to our own needs.

Can’t hear what others cry

The angels watching us must

bow their heads and wonder why. 

We are not crippled, my friends,

and if you don’t mind I’ll sit down. 

My knees are weary and so is my soul. 

I think of streets paved with gold.

Then look at myself as a clown. 

Did I do or am I doing my best? 

How do we bring this chorus to rest? 

What is the number of those who will die,

before we open our pathetic eyes? 

How do we feel? 

Is this real or just an interlude in time? 

I’m strumming my music while thinking up words,

hoping we’ll be fine. 

The parade is over; the tents come down. 

It will all be over before they leave town. 

Then the chaff and the grain will be

separated in the thrashing machine. 

Grain will be stored while the chaff burns. 

We tried our best, but never learned is

the cry we’ll hear from the losers. 

I hope to stand before the Lord

and sing out His praise:  Hallelujah!  

Back to the present where I’m playing chords,

my friends, I’m thinking of many of you. 

We are all pretty far along in life

and may see the end, soon. 

No one knows when they are going to be called

and when they are it seems to be unexpectedly. 

We feel real bad that we didn’t get a chance to say goodbye

and share a story or two. 

We didn’t take the time or didn’t have the time

and may have regrets. 

Every one of you should understand.  

I am sure you will hold no malice. 

But just to be sure, for me, although

I am not expecting to be gone soon,

I want to say that I have been happy to know you

and been a part of your life in some meaningful way. 

I strum my chords and sing out with joy: 

Hallelujah, Hallelujah! 

I wish you all the joy of the season. 

I have hope that you will be able to endure

any difficulties that come your way. 

The next year will give us all many opportunities

to help others and be filled up with joy. 

I wish it to be a happy one for you. 

Be at peace.  Love to you from Gulliver       

Steve Haarman aka Stanski

Poetry Blog:  stevehaarman.com

CHRISTMAS EVE

The holy night is near

Children filled with anxiousness

For the birth of Christ and

All the wonderful presents

Year after year

The music plays the same

So often we miss the point

As though this is some sort of game

There is no one

To hold account

We all have free will

Eventually we rethink

This is a special time of year

Don’t want to bring gloom

Somehow we have rewritten it

Tried to change the mood

Christ came to give salvation

We turned it into games

He was born because we’re sinners

To save us from the flames

It is time for us to access

Turn our lives around

Be willing to carry His cross

Build our life on solid ground

It is the time of year for children

We’re all children in a way

We have selfish tendencies

Have to change our ways

He was born to be a King

To teach us how to pray

We rejected and nailed Him

A burden we have to carry

So this is a new beginning

A chance to get things right

Use every chance to serve Him

Keep His sacred path in sight

Stanski

December 24, 2020 ^

DEALING WITH TRUTH

I am alone

I am who I am

I have my dreams

My notions of life

Birds flying overhead

Cannot strip me of my oneness

Trees with no leaves

Darker in rain

Whiter in snow

Can have no influence on me

My cares and resolve

Belong only to me

I tend to the things I tend

Succeeding and often sharing

Raw and cold days

Walking past people

Lost in their maze

The question of truth pops up, doesn’t faze

Aloneness is evident

Awareness of condition, too

Willingness to change not found

A close look at those who would receive

A look at ethic and attitude

All the excuses not making their case

Truth has no home here

Why would I care or

Desire to share even

A minute, a second of my time

I hear the geese whine and squeal

Gathering for journey to where

Suitable quarters await

I do not hesitate to wish them well

I am not a judge

I look at the lake

Wet and cold

Gibbous moon glimmering

I do not ask, “What would Jesus do?”

He threw moneychangers out

That was His notion

He suffered the cross

What am I to do?

Stanski

December 24, 2020 ^

THIS WEDNESDAY MORNING

Just before Christmas

Inland Sea is roaring

Wind blowing

Trees swaying

Ground green and brown

Nature singing

Bass and Baritone

Sky beginning to light up

Blue, gray and a tinge of pink

A new day

With many possibilities

All so seemingly normal

In an upside down world

Chinese Virus upset the globe

China on a terror

Africa making advances

Peace accords with Israel

Being made in Middle East

Unsettled election

The need for power

And with power, control

Faithfulness to our creator

In Whom we place our trust

All things will be resolved

We have our part

Consideration for others

Being peacemakers

Simple answers

But big efforts

Coming together in agreement

Resisting selfishness

All possible as

We celebrate

The Birth of the Savior

Stanski

December 23, 2020 ^

KNOWING THE TRUTH

When the people know the truth

The country will safely live on

Not to say that there won’t be skirmishes

Or battles for power and control

Nor to say that cheating won’t take place

Which will be hard to prove or refute

Success comes for some by

Bending and breaking the law

And when an outside aid arrives

Such as the Chinese Virus and

An excuse to send out unsolicited ballots

To people living or dead and many

No longer residing in the state in question

Or using post office boxes as apartment numbers

Stacks of ballots counted over and over

Duplicate ballots with no creases

All counted in the early hours when

No transparency was available or allowed

We can sense the alliance with China

Which has been covered up by those we trust

They have told us why they want power

Impose more taxes and regulations to

Handicap people from being successful

They do not want individual prosperity

Their desire is for equality — equal in misery

Socialism has never been successful

When the people believe this truth

The country will safely live on

Stanski

December 22, 2020 ^

CRITICAL THINKING

The learned ones pontificate

Their words are written down

Believers are excited with the eloquence

Phantom documentation takes place

Consensus leads to high praise

The Nobel Prize sure to follow

Politicians eager to take credit write

New laws to safeguard us from ourselves

Time has a way of correcting human folly

Subscribers, because of volume, do not establish fact

The earth turns out to not be flat

Polar caps grow at each pole and it’s

The sun which forms and destroys ozone and

Why can’t the erudite leave us alone?

Stanski

December 21, 2020 ^

MOVING OUR MINDS

My mind doesn’t seem to be

Clicking on all cylinders

It is not really a problem

But I just like to get into a grove

Where words that I like

Flow faster than I can write

Now I am a little bit jumpy

My thoughts are fluttery

I think it is much like life

We would like everything to go right

But like thunder and lightning

Interruptions are part of the game

We deal with them or go into denial

Dreams are of things going right

And that is what I like

My thoughts now are on giving

Make the world a better place

Provide water and food for those without

An unending chore unless things change

The need for power intervenes

Control over the populous gets in the way

But dictators need to be removed

So that liberation of the people takes place

Again, I seem to be dreaming, but

I believe in the power of God

We may pray but must keep on acting

I feel I am in a grove and

Would like to arouse the people to

Give, making situations better

While safeguarding our rights to act

Neglect will lead to disaster

When all is lost we will understand

Stanski

December 20, 2020 ^

LITTLE THINGS MEAN A LOT

An old man

Successful

If you should care

Finds a pan

He’s looking for

Rinses it and

Wipes it free of dust

Peals apples:

Macintosh and Ida Reds

Also four Bartlett pears

Cuts them into chunks

After removing the cores

Throws into the clean pan

Adds half a sack of

Rinsed cranberries

Four ounces of rum

One cup of water

And a little cinnamon

Heats on stove

Until the boiling begins

Then covers and

Turns to simmer

Humility is good

Burnt sauce is not

Nothing to salvage

One pan to clean

Dust is not a problem

Black, hard apple crud is

Pride has value

The pan eventually shined

Becomes the original goal

Fingertips need mending

Nerves are frazzled, but

The pan shined and

So did its cover

And just a little rum

To heal internal ache

Stanski

December 19, 2020 ^

DREAMING

Dreaming that life

   Would run smooth

In a realistic way

   Where little bumps and cracks

Were things you went around and

   Not the main event

Where a penny was given

   For a thought and

You didn’t need a shield

   To receive someone’s 2 cents worth

Where egg shells were associated

   With chickens rather than landmines

And you must travel carefully

   To avoid explosions

Where condition was not an excuse

   For bad behavior

Where tolerance and forgiveness

   Went hand in hand and

Prayers for enlightenment

   Were sincere and

Where humility was standard fare

   And graciousness superseded wrath

I will keep dreaming and

   Hoping that my dreams come true

Stanski

December 18, 2020 ^

IT WAS JUST A BLOOD DRAW

I walked out of the hospital

I had had a blood-draw

and would be having an on-line appointment

With my urologist on Monday

This would be a first for me

He was taught in Israel; was straight forward

And had a favorable personality

He has authored three books of essays which

Are very interesting. I would put him in the

well qualified category

He had checked my Prostate gland at an

earlier visit and said it was not smooth,

but enlarged; he indicated that I probably had

Cancer there, but not to worry, unless

It metastasized to another part of my body

I will die, he said, of normal things

That older people die of; we can’t live forever

I felt much better having heard that

On this Monday I will be talking to him

Meanwhile I thought about the weather

There was just a dribble of snow

The sky was gray; few birds visible

It is damp and bone chilling, but beautiful

I got into my car; had a few errands to run

I listened to Leonard Cohen singing

“Won’t you come to the window?

I’d like to read your palm”

I would like someone, a Gypsy, maybe

To read my palm, but in the meantime

I’ll keep my faith in God

I have opened up to His purpose for me;

Try to be ready should He call me

And that, my friends, cannot be all bad

Stanski

December 17, 2020 ^