Month: May 2023

SEEING THROUGH

I am tired of being rude, but

Don’t you know when no more

Means no more. You are more

Then I can handle. You come and

Tell me things that I already know

And I am supposed to be impressed.

I should nod my head in agreement

And praise you for your insight.

I am almost expecting you to take

Up a collection of money which

You will take to the poor. I want

To do my own collecting and reading

I do it already, and I don’t need

Coaching from someone who thinks

He has found an easy way to fulfill

His missionary assignment. My

Kindness in your mind gives you

Ownership of my goodness, but

Don’t count your chickens. I am at

The end of the trail with you and

You will have to find another way

Go find someone else to talk to

And wash their feet as an example

Of how to live and treat others.

Don’t forget I observe and report

And your actions are no longer

Looking good as I read them in my

Ledger. I think you understand so

We shall part for the last time, me

Wishing you well and you asking

For one more chance. I want to

Remind you that I can be a surly

S.O.B. if I must. I can’t say it hasn’t

Been interesting, but enough if

Not too much.

Stanski

May 5, 2023, ^

And I was there, just

Thinking of nothing, but

Observing all of the

Foolishness that goes on

between the various

countries, families and

friends. All the energy

spent chasing rainbows,

when everyone knows

that there is no pot of

gold waiting for the lucky

finder. Everyone cognoscente

of this knows or should

know that the gold is in the

giving of oneself to others,

to wash the feet of others,

but that is too much to

much to expect from those

who just talk the talk. I

scratched a cloud thinking

it was my back that itched

and was sore from carrying

too much weight. We have

a lot to learn. It is not

complicated, but a series of

easy steps that must be taken

if we are sincere when we say

we are looking for joy. Do we

always have to be right or can

we bow gracefully out of a

situation or conversation that

we know we have no chance

of influencing. I can see the

earth now, thanks to rotation,

and I see explosions of warfare

instead of parades of help. We

are not alone and have been

taught that He is here for us

and wants us to walk in verdant

pastures by calm waters. When

we learn this the struggle will

be over and we shall be at peace.

Stanski

May 4, 2023, ^

When you are asleep you

Have no control over your

Dreams or the results of them

They may drift from your

Awareness and then return

In a similar form. Nailing your

Eve’s trough back in place after

A tough winter, you see three

Or four yellowjackets coming

Out of their hibernation or quiet

Time. The tendency is to squash

Them before they sting you. In the

meantime, they begin copulating,

going at it for survival. It is a normal

spring activity and you cannot slow down

their activity and you keep dreaming

that they keep coming at you, while you

Call for the spray, which seems to work

The more you kill, the more that

Show up. This is to the point where

You need to call for help. On

Adjacent eves there are more than

You can handle so you decide to

Take down the trough and all the

Troughs around the house. You need

Netting and are receiving apologies from the

The men who were going to store the

Troughs over the winter. One was

Carrying a large jar of canned plums

Which we were going to buy since we

We’re now in a grocery store. He suggested

That we put it in the close-out bin to get a

Reduced price. I suggested we put their work

In the bin as it deserved close-out pricing. Next

I found myself in Fairbanks, Alaska, trying to

Get advice on how to solve my problem. A

Man named Dan asked if I had seen the paper

Which had the retirement notice of my sister

Who had worked in the hospital as a nurse for

58 years. I thought my sister had died, but Dan

Told me to tell my sister to call the number of

A man who had an interest in her. He fixed me up

With a special noise machine that would drive the

Yellow jackets away. I returned home and gave

My sister the paper and plugged in the machine.

The insects left, and we began the repairs. I woke

Up tired. 

Stanski

May 3, 2023, ^

I was flying into space

Just outdistanced the

Wet claws of an eagle

Flying out to far. I

Could not be slowed

Down as I had too much

Of the galaxy to see this

Day. My purpose is to

Find life as I know it on

Any of the planetary

Bodies of which there are

Millions. I soared and viewed

And my purpose was coming

Up empty. The God of us all

Had so far restricted any

Discovery. He knew what I was

Up to. I wanted to discover if

There was life anywhere, where

Peace and prosperity prevailed

Hope upon hope was getting me

Nowhere and I decided to go

Back for now and return later,

Understanding that our earth was

As good as it was going to get.

This of course made me very sad

We had everything we needed and

Still could not find peace or

Reconciliation amongst ourselves

There was always something out

Of kilter with no proper order.

Someone always had to set out to

To prove some impossible thing,

To no avail I might add. Misery was

The best word to describe the

Overall conditions. We had many

Lessons but had failed to learn from

Any. Maybe this is the best we have

To look forward to. We will find out

As I continue my search at a later date.

Stanski

May 2, 2023, ^

The builders rejected it and

I know the feeling. I reach with

Hope to know they would be

Happy with me, but stay rejected

I meditate over this for a while

And then resolve that not selected

As a regular stone of which, there

Are many or a rejected stone of which

There are just a few. I will live my life

Quietly and accept everything that

Comes my way. The cornerstone is

Lovely to look at, and it is sentimental

Sometimes giving you the shivers as

You reflect on it and all that has passed

Since it was selected and locked into

Place. I want people to see me in that

Light. Nothing outstanding but there

Dependable, unshakeable, and worthy

Of remembrance. My music will be

Dark and jazzy, and people will listen to me

As I anchor the building with stability and

A tone that keeps people attached to their

Roots. No one will be tossed by imitating me

But rather praised for being so useful

I will reach into the cosmos and grab

A handful of stardust and sprinkle it

Wherever I go and goodness will come

From it. When this happens, I know that

My double rejection had a valuable outcome.

Stanski

May 1, 2023, ^