Sometimes I feel I’m in a conversation with myself.
Everything I bring up is answered with one word.
I give it my best, but it makes me tired.
A dragged out feeling is what I have, but
The person only answers and never engages
I go on and feel disappointed when anything brought up
Is treated with indifference in a monotone voice.
Where was it that I went wrong, I wonder?
These are pretty interesting subjects that receive no interest.
Should I pack my bags and leave?
Knock my head on a wall or wipe my eyes with a sleeve?
I am not a bottomless pit of ideas, although I have plenty.
This person just has no regard.
I could play him like a card. A joker.
I think of an adage I like:
Don’t waste time with unproductive people.
Then say goodbye and turn to leave, but
Stop when he asks something personal,
Wondering, I ask if he is keeping a journal and
Having no clue of what I mean, he walks away.
Can’t imagine what he wanted me to say after
I had already worn myself out trying to reach him.
Good time to remember an old song,
“I’m forever chasing rainbows, Watching clouds drifting by”
Today it was a cloud, there can be no doubt.
A.H.McKricken aka Stanski
November 20, 2021 ^
Steve Haarman 