Day: November 20, 2021

I often think that life is useless

You try to improve things and

Find yourself alone in the effort

People are too busy with themselves

Life is full of use

People are busy

We should not bow our heads and

Walk away from our efforts, but

Double down in prayer and sacrifice

We are not alone in doing the good work

God speaks to us in many ways

He sees all of our flaws and

I don’t think He pauses to lament them

He slips through our cracks and

Brings the light to us and then

We are set up to proceed,

Always with hope and thanksgiving

When we finally know this,

We see that we have grown and

Our value has increased

Stanski

November 20, 2021 ^

Sometimes I feel I’m in a conversation with myself.

Everything I bring up is answered with one word.

I give it my best, but it makes me tired.

A dragged out feeling is what I have, but

The person only answers and never engages

I go on and feel disappointed when anything brought up

Is treated with indifference in a monotone voice.

Where was it that I went wrong, I wonder?

These are pretty interesting subjects that receive no interest.

Should I pack my bags and leave?

Knock my head on a wall or wipe my eyes with a sleeve?

I am not a bottomless pit of ideas, although I have plenty.

This person just has no regard.

I could play him like a card.  A joker.

I think of an adage I like: 

Don’t waste time with unproductive people.

Then say goodbye and turn to leave, but

Stop when he asks something personal,

Wondering, I ask if he is keeping a journal and

Having no clue of what I mean, he walks away.

Can’t imagine what he wanted me to say after

I had already worn myself out trying to reach him.

Good time to remember an old song,

“I’m forever chasing rainbows, Watching clouds drifting by”

Today it was a cloud, there can be no doubt.

A.H.McKricken aka Stanski

November 20, 2021 ^