Hoping this day is going well for you It sounds like you are busy lots and lots to do I can only caution you do whatever you do because it is right for you if you were all alone with only you to think of what would you do what you do should line up with that thinking I think you have been through the gauntlet of life you’ve survived you are strong you have to understand it is okay to lay down your façade and just be your true you live up to your own expectations of you for you I think deep down you are tired exhausted existing with burden I think what is best for your true being only you can know life is moving on like lightning it will be over in a flash what will be important then make that important now lighten your load if that is what you think I think you are a joy you are sunshine soft rain gentle breeze you are a delight, but your kindness to others needs to be directed to yourself for a little while I think Stans has his landscaping has his writings and poems he does what he does to satisfy himself he obeyed his natural instincts in the garden and with pen in pleasing himself he is pleasing everyone who is lucky enough to know him in person or through his writings I think you are my sapient my sapphire; no longer a sapling, not a willow not an oak but somewhere in there is a little of both you have what it takes to make life best for you and only you can do what is right for you no one else can do for you what you can do for you I think Steve Haarman aka Stansberry McKricken March 16, 2021 ^