Day: December 30, 2020

I know the feeling of being loved

Forty-six years was not too much

But now that I am alone again

I sometimes feel out of touch

I know that I am kneeling

At the edge of my years

But I am young in spirit

Which endures beyond all fears

I do not need more challenges

Having faced more than my share

I want to dwell on what we call goodness

There is no reason that wouldn’t be fair

I have been abandoned in a snow storm

Left to struggle on my own, but

Know there is much more life to embrace

I am older but I am not worn

So I look for what is lost

Reject most of what is found

Am rejected by what I thought

Were possibilities and in the end

I was left scorned, but

I have hope and trust and

Know the real secret of love

I could draw on linen, a blue print

It would include what is lost and found

If I am left in isolation because

I was the obstacle to my success

I will remember that feeling of being loved

And will savor the feeling of the ultimate caress

Steve Haarman aka Stanski

December 30, 2020 ^