I WALK IN MY MIND GARDEN

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 My body is shaking
 I am not free
 And not at ease
 Conditions are bothering me
  
 I will walk in my garden
 The garden of my mind
 The frigid north wind 
 Tells me this is fine
  
 The garden is lovely
 Sunshine and fragrance
 Mild wind and a little dew
 Perfect time to dance
  
 I am all alone, except
 For my Shepherd
 A loved one, my angel 
 Is gone without a word
  
 My Brother stands by me
 He knows my low feelings
 He whispers “Be at peace”
 Words in my ears are ringing
  
 Master, should I wait
 He says, take your time
 I have plans for you
 Everything will be fine
  
 I miss praying with her
 Holding her close
 Just being with her
 Washing her clothes 
  
 Be patient my brother
 These things take time
 I can tell you my brother
 Everything will be fine
  
 I am brokenhearted 
 I know, He tells me
 I, too, carried a cross
 Just wait and you’ll see
  
  
  
  
 How long do I wait
 Until the end of time?
 Just until you work the garden
 And smell the fragrance of the pine
  
 Days, weeks and months and years
 I wanted her soon
 What is your time line?
 I hope when the moon is blue
  
 We walk some more in
 This garden of my mind
 Talk about many things
 How life has a line
  
 About our commitments
 Things I want to do 
 Changes in the community
 Beginning of something new
  
 I want her with me, Lord
 To walk by her side
 Share the joys and failures
 Let her be my guide
  
 Be patient, my brother
 Things will go your way
 You and your loved one
 Will have another day
  
 He looked a little tired
 Just as I felt it was time to go
 He gave me one last look
 Be at peace, you’ll soon know
  
  
 Stanski
 November 10, 2019 ^